Then again...., who is these days???
Hurray for me. I managed to be a responcible adult and actually make a Doctor appointment. After two months of avoiding the issue I can no longer continue at work or my life without doing something about it. I hate Doctors in general. I finally gound one that I loved and she's out with a new baby.
I have gone through two bouts of cancer, mental health issues, epilepsy, bad boyfriends (and yes, that landed me in the hostpital once or twice), being a street kid and just being an all around clutz. Not to mention my Children and giving birth. Once when a friend of mine was staying in the hostpital I went down to the emergency room to go outside and the front desk people stopped me to see how things were going with my family and I. Good greif! With my health and my freinds this is getting rediculous!!!
I am not a drug addict, I don't make up illness and I have no reason to get attention. I have tons of attention. I know that sounds totally conceided but it's not.
Anyway, back to the health issues. Now I know if you have read my blog about wieght you'll think it's balemia but it's not I hate throwing up and that's totally not the way to go to lose wieght. I have been either nauseus or throwing up for about a month now. I'm getting really short of breath, and I get dissy at the drop of a hat.
I know the first thing my Dr will pick on about the breathing is my smokeing but I have been smokeing for over ten years now. I'm a swimmier and a singer, I know what is normal and what is not. Now, the Doctor can go off all he wants about how I need to quit but until he's willing to pay for the good stuff to help me quit I can't afford it.
My breathing started to get really bad after catching a face full of black powder that was in the fabric I was sorting at work. My lungs still aren't the same and getting worse. I'm going to try to and explain this to the dr. But who the hell knows what that could mean. It was only antique clothing breaking down. We get it all the time.
I am a healthy 25 ish person. I am active and take long walks. I have a good strong body structure and have play sports almost my whole life. With the list at the beginning I'm sure you're thinking, "Yea right!". No, it's really true. I get tired at times when I have no business being tired but it's true. I can't stand being on bed rest and tend to get up anyway just to have something to do. Even through the chemo I went through I was up when I could and seeing people when i could. I have pictures to prove it. I looked like hell but I was still as up as I could be.
I never want pity or sympathy. Not my style. If anything, keep me occupied so I can worry about everything and I'll make it through whatever this ife can throw at me.
Well, time for a shower and some time with my Mom. I missed the blog while it was down.