But some days it helps find the silver lineing!
I am seeing Mr. Dark still. There have some issues. In a perfect world there wouldn't be but hey realality is the world I live in, not perfect. We've been having issues lately. Nothing too big or anything, jsut issues. New relationship findings and other things.
He's very protective of me and has some issues from passed relationships. And so do I. I have found that in the last year or so I have learned to stand up for myself when it comes to relationships. Which is fabulous for me but at the same time can cause drama. And in this, it also means that I am going extreme for awhile until I get the hang of it.
I care deeply for Mr. Dark and have been having a generally wonderful great time being with him. We usually see things the same way and he makes me laugh and treats me soo well.
The only thing I can see that might be a problem in the future is the fact that at times he seems to forget that I am an adult who has lived on my own for years and not even my parents could get me to tell them where I was, if I wanted to wonder off. It's just not in my make up. Anyway, I do try really hard now to let people know but it doesn't always happen.
This seems to make him really upset and I try not to over react but I did and do. I don't like to be pinned or confronted in a harsh way. No one will ever win that way.
I have a temper, a quick mind, and an understanding of the human laungage and in and outs that most people find baffleing. I can turn anything back on someone (even though I try really hard not ) (most times), and I can search out the arguement that makes me right with ease. My brain just works that way.
Mr. Dark and I fighting is to say the least interesting. He gets stuck on a point and I get frustrated with that. I found out that's he can't quite keep up when I throw ten things at him at once in an angry rant. So I have to slow down. This isn't to say that he's dumb, he's not. I can talk faster than most people, including me, can think.
Well, we were having one of our "tiffs" and it was getting pretty bad. After awhile we just had to calm down talk about something else for a few and then go back to what had driven us nuts. This seems to work because we both have time to work things out in our heads and we can talk then. Another new relationship thing. Finding out how the other fights. I fight dirty and I know it. After a point there's no going back and I just don't care. At that point no one wins. I haven't hit that point in a long time thank god!
The "tiff" ended with us being okay and both saying sorry for the stupid things we said or took the wrong way. We really do try hard. But like with most relationships I have seen, it's like having a new toy, you have to tear it apart and put it back together for it to work right. Push the limits, so to speak. I think that most things new are that way. Even children. Pushing to find where they can and can't go wrong.
Our "Tiffs" are getting less and less and even thorugh them all he treats me wonderfully. This last weekend he spent most of the weekend waiting on me hand and foot. It was fabulous!!!!!!!!!! It won't happen often because I can't stand watching someone else doing all the work but it was great either way. He cooked and brought me great food. He spent time telling me how wonderful I looked and would stop conversations just to say hi and kiss me at random.
At one time while I was belly dancing, (not nessicarely for him), but dancing, he lost all train of thought watching me and had to be brought back to the conversation by a tug on his sleeve. I don't know if he even knows that I was paying attention. I know for a fact that there's something about a jingly clad woman dancing next to a fire that just is beautiful. I have watched it with my own eyes. I even got bunches of other girls to get out there and dance with me to tempt thier boytoys or to get boytoys. It was so much fun!!!!
I guess I'm getting off track, anyway, he treated me better than most men when they were at thier best. I know he's a keeper. We just have to work thorugh our issues from other relationships before things can heat up too much or go to far. And amazingly enough, we are working through them no matter how many bumps in the road we find.