I am not old by any means. I am also not as young as I once was. And with that I have lived a harder life than most. And not near as hard as others.
I was thinking of being younger and all the things I used to do. Like not having an embaressment button at all. Building blanket forts in the living room or dining room. Playing pretend with my friends and having adventures every day. Those things are wonder-full.
Most of this is based on a book that's just great reading. Called "Good Omens". I suggest anyone and everyone read it. Take it with a grain of salt and keep in mind the humor. But it made me think of being a child again. Of innocence and beauty. Real beauty. Like watching bug and clouds.
I keep trying to figure out when I grew up. And I know that my innocence left at a young age so I have been makeing up for it slowly. Which is what most young kids do when they get out on thier own.
I still worry over the adult stuff. But there's something about simple plesure and laughter that just makes the world brighter. It's going to the park and playing on the swings. Or a water fight with only your best clothes on. You, dear reader, should try the water fight with your best clothes on. It's liberateing beyond compare. Almost as liberateing as a water fight in the house. (well, you have to fight some where in the winter.)
Go to toys R Us and by a toy. Not for any child you know, but for you, then take it home and PLAY with it. These are things I miss. These are the things I do to keep young. To stay alive and remember. Take a blanket and make it your force field next time your in bed and someone calls you don't want to talk to. Blanket are the best things in the world for pretend. They can be so many things at once. A force field, a cape, a tent or fort, rope, water, a swing, a ship, anything you can think of. Please if I have missed some tell me and I will try them.
I know that here in a bout an hour I will heading off to work. And I like my job. No matter how un cool it is. I love it! I know my rights and responceibilities. I know what to do to get crap done. And most days I bust ass. And then I get to come home tierd and not wanting to cook and I make ice cream and dortioes dinner. Or lucky charms. Which is still my favorie cereal. Sure there are days I make full and healthy meals. Actually most of the time I make healthy meals, but there are days when a sugar high is the best thing on the planet.
The other day I was walking in a park and ran up to some random person on the path touched them and yelled (at the top of my lungs) "TAG!" and ran away. Amazingly enough the person started to give chase almost without thinking about it. Got about three steps and stopped and smiled. These are the things we need to do to reach eachother. Take away the "embaressment button". Get over our fears and ourselves. Take a risk and you just might be surprised at what you get. For just ten minutes, ten minutes isn't long, for just ten minutes, go play. Not at a club or doing anything an adult would do. Take out crayons and color. Borrow a barbie and take a bath. Or if you're a guy, get a ship. Forget candles and a book, take color foam and gi joes. All it takes is ten minutes. Just ten minutes a week. Sure at first you feel stupid but remember that's an adult thing. Hold your head up and sing a very bad song at the top of your lungs. Or worse yet, sing your favorite line over and over while driving. Changing it to match your favorite cartoon theme. My son does that. Good lord! It makes me laugh so hard.
Just take some time and be creative in a childs way. I once wore a very bad hair style for about a month because I was never allowed to have it as a child. I had a tail! It didn;t hurt anyone, but man it looked awful on me. Hehee! Take things that won't hurt anyone and go for it. Go to a water park and get the color sun screen.
If any of this is hard for you, find a child, hopefully that you know, and ask them the rules to their favorite game. Play with them. They are great tour guides into thier worlds. They will tell you when you're being too adult.
I have to go now but remember above all. To LAUGH! Just laugh. At everything. Irony is the best one to laugh at.